Last of My lil Coffee Cake :)

I finally have some strength to look at Coffee’s pics n dug up this adorable pic of mine with her that i took on 5th Dec 2012


Lil adorable soul, Love her to bits n miss her always. 🙂
Just wanted to share it all before i move on with life and other beautiful things heading my way. Am sure she is up there happy for me and jumping here n there like she always did.

Date of Birth: 6th March 2012
Date of Buying her: 15th July
Date of Selling her:17th Feb
Date of her Death: 18th April
Cause of Death: A home Accident, some thing fell on her n broke her jaw n she died on the operation table 😥

It still feels unreal n i really hope the guy lied to me n sold her off to some one else n shes still alive. 😦

Bigggggg Hugssssssssss to her.


‘Sawal’ (Question)

This post was originally written in Urdu, hence translating under each verse in english so that more people can understand this post :)… thank you for reading

‘Sawal’ (Question)


Guzartey they jiss key liye har rooz us gali sey
Woh dil ab in sey tera sawal kerta hai

*the path they took every day for whom
that heart now questions them about you*

Ssaathi bhi bichar gaye, mahboob bhi na paya
Yeh zamana ab in un sey tera sawal kerta hai

*lost friends and never got a lover
this world now questions them about you*

Judda kiya tu ney khud ko jiss sey
Woh khud apney aap sey tera sawal kerta hai

*you separated yourself from whom
the one now asks themselves about you*

Bitaye they saath jo shab-o-roz her su
Woh mosam ab in sey tera sawal kerta hai

*spent days and nights with the one
that season now questions them about you*

Bikhrey hain kiss key dil key tukrey yon
Woh shaks ab khuda sey tera sawal kerta hai

*the heart thats been shattered so badly
that person now asks God about you

Guzartey they jiss key liye har rooz us gali sey
Woh dil ab in sey tera sawal kerta hai

*the path they took every day for whom
that heart now questions them about you*

12th Dec 2000′

You loved me in a way


No one has ever loved me
You loved me in a way
I could never ask god for any thing more
Then the love you give me Every day
We live togther forever
That’s what i always pray
I love u so much my dear
But I still never say
Waiting for the the right time
It may not be now, or it may
Your love seems to me
Like a true bright sun ray
You are my aim my passion
I know you will always stay
Coz no one has ever loved me
You loved me in such a way.

18th Feb 98′

5 Minute Friday – GOOD BYE!

5 Minutes Friday is hosted by  The Gypsy Mama every Friday where we write for five minutes right from the heart without self-editing, no backtracking or over-thinking on a given prompt.


Then link up at The Gypsy Mama’s to see what others have to say and to encourage each other’s efforts.

Today’s prompt: GOOD BYE

Ready…. Go

Good bye, as simple as it sounds its very hard to say, especially when you are saying it to some one you know is going out of ur life for good. How do you let that attachment, that love, that intensity for the person just go to ashes in the burning flame of a simple good bye so easily??? its soo difficult to just stand there, face your fears and tell that one person who meant the world to you, that its the end? a good bye?
you need alot of courage and strength to do it, knowingly, it kills you but still you have to be strong, for your self and for the other.


Wish it was as easy as saying it, things would be much simple. the hurting heart needs to lay back, the tears ready to fall from the corner of the eye needs to stay there a bit longer, the heart beating so fast needs to calm down a lil, the skin blushing with emotions needs to cool off a bit longer, till one is told off, Given a farewell………… A final good bye!


Okay, it’s your turn.  I look forward to reading your thoughts.

If You Leave Me


I can never think of a time
that i can spend without you
you have become so important to me
that life without you will be meaningless
i have loved you so purely and truely
then why is my love not answered
a moment without you is like an end
a life without you will be hell
Dont give me so much pain
Dont kill me before my death
I am ready to face any thing in life
only if you are with me
to encourage me n give me support
My life was messed up before you
You entered in and organized it
now if you leave me and go
My life will be shattered
I need you to be with me
to guide my life in an organized way
to tell me where i am wrong
and kiss me blues away
Since you came into my life
Flowers are my path
and happiness my way
If you ever leave me
My happiness will fade
and flowers will wither
My eyes will cry
n my heart will pain
My sunshine will set
Never to rise again
Please my love
Dont leave me and go
Because without you
I will be no more, No
Please promie to stay sweetheart
For never to be apart
If you go remember one thing forever
that my love for you will finish never
I love you

7th March 99′

“LOve is Unique”

Love is something that is unique
You find it hard to get
Sweet blend of feelings and emotions
That is hard to forget
You dont know how it is,
Very rare to find
But most of all, people say
In love you are blind
It is that relation in which
Two souls are bind
And have a deep connection
Between their hearts and mind
Is it some one you know
Or someone you newly met?
But i feel that
True Love is some thing really unique
which is hard to get.
14th June 98′