Last of My lil Coffee Cake :)

I finally have some strength to look at Coffee’s pics n dug up this adorable pic of mine with her that i took on 5th Dec 2012


Lil adorable soul, Love her to bits n miss her always. šŸ™‚
Just wanted to share it all before i move on with life and other beautiful things heading my way. Am sure she is up there happy for me and jumping here n there like she always did.

Date of Birth: 6th March 2012
Date of Buying her: 15th July
Date of Selling her:17th Feb
Date of her Death: 18th April
Cause of Death: A home Accident, some thing fell on her n broke her jaw n she died on the operation table šŸ˜„

It still feels unreal n i really hope the guy lied to me n sold her off to some one else n shes still alive. šŸ˜¦

Bigggggg Hugssssssssss to her.


Run Down Event Updates


Helloo Allll

i figured if i start writing every event that i wanna share in flowery tone n details and what not i might never be able to get to the end of it, so instead i will just do a simple run down with may b dates and events and a lil comment about it so that i can get over with it, not that its gonna b too much fun any more that way n with no pictures, but i guessĀ that’sĀ the best way possible for now. Otherwise the LAZY ME will never get on with it. So here i am breaking the ice!!!

10th January: Hubby n I came back from Thailand (our long awaited Honeymoon trip of 10 days), over all it was amazing, plus my best friend lives there so was a good reunion too, had a lovely time there, also had a 2 nights 3 days short visit to Pattaya. Simply loved it šŸ™‚

12-15th January: Attended my friend’s wedding here, was the main reason to come back to early otherwise i prolly wud have stayed back with my friend and hubby cud have come back for his work, but i guessĀ everyĀ thing happens for a reason and am glad i came back with hubby šŸ™‚

27th January: I found out the best news of my life, the news i had been waiting for, for sooo long šŸ˜€ YES i am pregnant šŸ˜€ yayyy feels good to finally let it out on my blog here hehe. Hence it was nice i came back with hubby, he was the happiest on the news offcourse, so were my family nĀ in-lawsĀ  Actually on 26th i just did a random test and i was sooo sure it wud be just one line and i thot to my self fine i will do it, not like am preggy, but when i saw a faint line i FREAKED out, i instantly took the pic of the strip n sent it to my best friend (god bless whatsapp) and she called and asked me to take another test which i did and the line was much clearer. but iĀ wasn’tĀ gonna get my hopes high, so on 27th i went with my mom in law (since we live with her) n got my blood test done in the morning. I came back from the clinic n then broke the news to Hubby that I think ur gonna be a daddy šŸ™‚ i chked the result online at 3pm and it confirmed i was very much Pregnant. LOL now that i let it out here, i wanna keep writing it again n again lol (crazy excited me)

17thĀ February: I had started to feel that iĀ couldn’tĀ take care of Coffee, (for new readers) the new poodle pup i had gotten in July 2012. I would still have to leash her every time i took her out for a pee and she wud wanna run and resist, the pulls started to give me strain and pressure in my abdomen and i knew with time i will totally not be able to take care of her, and hubby is mostly busy at work, so i cant expect him to be available for her walk around needs, so i had to take a decision and on 17th Feb i sold her, hoping she wud have a good life and will be taken good care of, since the guy who got her was all happy and stuff. so with a heavy heart i let her go. but the good thing was that she just went away, well in a way it was weird coz sheĀ didn’tĀ even stop to look back she was all too happy to be going. good it was coz i knew she wud adjust there and wont have aĀ problemĀ  sad coz it made me feel that i stillĀ haven’tĀ been able to make her MY DOG.Ā HubbyĀ had a big face made for 2 days coz he was too sad and wanted to keep her but i knew he will not be able to takeĀ responsibilityĀ as needed with time and it was best to let her go

3rd March: My doc told me that i really need to rest and take things easy, coz i kept feeling heavy and crampy and she said its not good. so i had some good long bed rest, Kept going to shops for various things on n off but mostly was trying to take things easy. LOL cant help it i am a restless soul šŸ˜›

21st March:Ā iĀ hadn’tĀ told my gang till now, n it was getting frustrating, i wanted to just shout out my news, am not the person ti keep my happiness to my self but like every one says let the 3 months pass, let the risky time go and wat not, so by now I couldn’tĀ hold the news any long and just HAD to share it with my gang so on 21st i arranged a dinner at my place, called my gang of 8 couples, after the dinner while the girls were collecting plates n clearing the table “Hibs” told me how she and “Nom” talked on their way to our place n guessed y i had called all on dinner, she said i said mayb she is expecting, or mayb her hubby got a promotion (they forgot my hubby works for himself soĀ there’sĀ no point of promotion :P) , i just looked at her smiled and said hey cant i call u all for dinner without any reason? šŸ˜› hehehhe. Later all settled on sofas and i finally brokeĀ the news to “Natz” who had predicted last year that this year all of us will get preggy. so i told her dude ur prediction is true. and told “Hibs” ur discussion in the car was right, n then i started to blush lol. i swear it was totally unintentional. Hearing this Ana, K and M also jumped with happiness and they all congratulated me. The guys congratulated my hubby. It finally felt good to tell them and not have to lie why i am not making any plans or getting tired every time i go to their place and have my back aches and what not hehhee, i could finally b open to them šŸ™‚ the girls screamed and danced and started going crazy about how they wanna arrange my baby shower lol i tell u they are some real crazy girls, n i love them to bits :)))

20th April: The guy who took Coffee called and informed that she expired 2 days back. had a slight accident in their store, where she was with his wife and some thing fell from the top shelf and broke her jaw. he took her to the hospital and the doc started to operate but she cudnt make it and died on the table. šŸ˜„ After hearing this i was furious with the guy that he cudnt take care of her n all. i was too sad, but later i also thought, now i might beĀ selfishĀ here but i thought that If she had to go at this time anyways am kinnda glad she was not in front of me, Coz i wudnt have had been able to deal with it especially with my slightly high rick pregnancy. šŸ˜¦ May she rest in peace. I will always love her, I would attach her pic here for new readers but am still not able to see her pics, it still hurts. so those who don’t know about her can just scroll in my blog and see my pretty lil coffee cake. šŸ™‚

27th April: Today i finally thot its about time that i share stuff otherwise i will keep sitting and before i know it it will be the end of this year. Now i will also start my preggy updates so those who are not much eager about it IF i mean may ignore it šŸ™‚Ā Up tillĀ now iĀ haveĀ beenĀ writingĀ an every day diary of wat i eat, what i feel, symptoms, and any movements and wat i felt about doc appointments and what meds she told me when, and when i had my ultrasounds, how my weight is going and stuff like that just so i keep an over all record, and also will may b telly it with my next pregnancy if needed. šŸ™‚

Aaaah šŸ™‚ Finally I can start from every day stuff i hope i don’t lazy out now šŸ™‚ Hope u all enjoy my run down post. Keep coming back for more

love u allll n big hugssssssss


Bangkok Trip story

Part 1 (Day 30th Dec 2012- Day 31st Dec 2012)

So i have been putting up writing about my trip for so long now, so much has happened in between my arrival back till now but am not gonna get into that at this point, will share that in a diff post šŸ™‚ So since it had been such a long time that i actually thought i will notĀ rememberĀ what all i wanted to share. thank god i had the pictures saved in aĀ separateĀ folder, and while editing them today it all just came back to me, fresh as it just happened yesterday.
So here we go

On blog the last thing i shared was me on the airport n the a sunrise atĀ BangkokĀ airport n my friend was at the airport with her hubby to collect us šŸ™‚

we went home all happy andĀ cheeringĀ  although i was a lil tired form the flight n coz iĀ wasn’tĀ too well it feltĀ moreĀ tiring then usual. after a light breakfast we slept for a whileĀ sinceĀ it was only early morning that we reached. For lunch we went out to to a Mall and from there i told my friend that i wanna visit another Mall so she and hubby can go home and me and hubby will take a BTS (BangkokĀ transit system) to the mall n then will come home in the Cab. Since itĀ wasn’tĀ my very first time toĀ BangkokĀ  i just revised the routes with my friend n off me n hubby went exploring the world hehe. got a few stuff for friends back home from that mall and by late evening reached home all tired. i cud have just hit the bed instantly but instead we had dinner and then watched a movie with my friends. finally the day came to an end, by now my head was spinning with the flight travel (u know how u feelĀ disorientedĀ and loose balance every now n then after almost a train travel) i felt miserable.

But nothing that a good nights sleep cant do, so the next morning we woke up fresh and ready for the day. My friend had to takeĀ herĀ 4 months old daughter for a doc chk-up so we tagged along and after the doc’s visit stopped atĀ StarbucksĀ for sum yummy caramel coffee nĀ cinnamonĀ roll for hubby and hot chocolate and sum yummyĀ EspressoĀ brownie for me . OMG its like out of the world n literally melts in the mouth šŸ˜€


Cinnamon Roll, Caremal coffee and Espresso Brownie


“Melt in the Mouth” Espresso Brownie


Hot Chocolate

We went home after our yummy for the tummy session. Left the sleeping baby at home with the maid. and again left for a near by new mall that had just opened. this time my friend’s Shih tzu “Ruby” came along.


Off courseĀ we had to leave her in the car. weĀ weren’tĀ sure if the mall allows pets in. and we planned to come back quickly. in the Mall we saw the most adorable littleĀ PomeranianĀ . i get a better picture of this happy hyper lil puppy. and we thought if we knew we wud have brought Ruby in with us.:)


Lil furry Pomeranian

It was a nice mall but alot of shops were still waiting to open up, so our trip to it was much quicker since we just strolled along the entire mall to see wat all is there, n took a few pics of me n hubby šŸ™‚


Back home we relaxed a little. There is a nice little pond along with a walking strip in theĀ condominiumsĀ where my friend lives. I have always enjoyed walking there and sitting by the pond, watching koi’s swim by, so i took hubby out for a walk and later sat on the benches near the pond and enjoyed the fresh breath ofĀ BangkokĀ night.

It was all so peace, i wanted the moment to cease.:))


Finally its the New year so we kept it light for the day since we knew we will go out in the night, yet had to come back early coz me n hubby planned to leave for Pattaya the very next morning. All dressed for the celebrations we went off to a roof top of a high rise hotel to celebrate the new years eve while watching the fireworks



Our sofa’s boomed with theĀ vibrationĀ of the fireworks. It was amazing.


With the count down, it was aĀ beginningĀ of a new year. Cheers and whistles all in the air along with the fireworks wishing it to be a Very Happy New Year šŸ™‚

Sooo wat did u all do for the new year?

Rescue Me


!!!Rescue Me!!!

I wish to be in ur arms
in front of the bonefire
under the open sky
twinkling starts n shinning moon
enlightened in ur love
Kiss me and rescue me (my love)
set me free in your world
Allow me to be ur slave
in the castle of ur heart
for i will always dance
in the beauty of ur soul

15th April 2000′




With you i am never alone
coz with u i feel surrounded with love
each day u make me feel different
each day u make me feel complete
though therez nothing much between us right now
but i love the way u make me feel loved
i loved the way u wrapped ur arms around my leg
where i stood beside you while u were sitting
i loved the way u wrapped ur arms around me
even though we were standing in a crowd
we were infront of so many ppl
when u kept ur arm on my shoulder n dragged me near
i loved the way ur hand moved on my back
n played with my hair
while i rested i head on ur knee
my heart stopped with anticipation
when you grabbed my hand and asked me
“wat are u trying to do to me”
with ur head tilt on side
and eyes filled with confusion
i loved the way i pushed u in the corner
and u let ur self loose, n allowed me to kiss u
i loved the way u tried to protect me
during the water war in the ground
i loved the way u first held my hand “Knowingly”
but looked at me n said “excuse me?”
as if u didnt do any thing and were innocent
I love the way u make me feel loved n cared
& i might never be able to thank you
for all the things that u make me feel
i love the way u say “Dont go”
just before i put the phone down
i love the way u arrest me in ur thoughts
n i like to request you for just one thing today
Never Set Me Free
for i want to be arrested
in your thougth forever

4th April 2000′

‘Sawal’ (Question)

This post wasĀ originallyĀ written in Urdu, hence translating under each verse in english so that more people can understand this post :)… thank you for reading

‘Sawal’ (Question)


Guzartey they jiss key liye har rooz us gali sey
Woh dil ab in sey tera sawal kerta hai

*the path they took every day for whom
that heart now questions them about you*

Ssaathi bhi bichar gaye, mahboob bhi na paya
Yeh zamana ab in un sey tera sawal kerta hai

*lost friends and never got a lover
this world now questions them about you*

Judda kiya tu ney khud ko jiss sey
Woh khud apney aap sey tera sawal kerta hai

*you separated yourself from whom
the one now asks themselves about you*

Bitaye they saath jo shab-o-roz her su
Woh mosam ab in sey tera sawal kerta hai

*spent days and nights with the one
that season now questions them about you*

Bikhrey hain kiss key dil key tukrey yon
Woh shaks ab khuda sey tera sawal kerta hai

*the heart thats been shattered so badly
that person now asks God about you

Guzartey they jiss key liye har rooz us gali sey
Woh dil ab in sey tera sawal kerta hai

*the path they took every day for whom
that heart now questions them about you*

12th Dec 2000′